Two to go before I beat your ass."- Logan said and I went still.

I left the office without saying anything else and went to the living room. There were Kade and Colin who were about to leave.

" Hey!"- i said and they both turned to me.  They smiled at the same time.  I really like these two. They're funny and easy going and I never felt like I need to walk on eggshell around them. I also like spending time with them.

Kade came to me first and kissed my mouth slowly and sweetly. I could taste whiskey on his mouth.

Then came Colin , he kissed me the same, the only difference is Colin's kiss is calmer, as he likes savouring me until he's fully satisfied while Kade kiss is faster as it's the last time he's going to kiss me. I feel different emotions every time I'm with one of them and I guess that's what keep me interested, that's what's pulling me closer to them. The emotions. The things I've never felt before.

After Colin savoured my mouth he pulled me in a hug and rested his chin on the top of my head. And I love it when he's hugging me, I feel like those big arms are protecting me, shielding me. I feel safe on his arms. I'm not tense and I'm very relaxed.

" Where are you going?"- I ask, wrapping my arms around Colins waist. From the four of them he's more leaner, but he's muscular too.

" Just going to chill at the table by the pool."- Kade said. See, he used the word chill as a normal human being. I don't think the word "chill"  exists in Silas's and Logan's vocabulary.

" Can I come?"- i ask, because I would really like to spend some chill time with them instead of going back to the office and study under the overbearing presence of Silas and Logan.

" Shouldn't you be studying?"- Kade asked.

" Logan said I could take one hour break."- i say and they both smiled.

" Okay then let's go!"- Colin says taking my hand on his.

" You two go, I will go grab a snack in the kitchen and then I'm going to join you,"- Kade said and left. Me and Colin went to the table at the backyard. There was a table with five chairs. And a few meters away was a big pool. We were standing when Colin grabbed my waist and slammed me to  him, and he kissed me again. I think he likes more to kiss than to fuck. He's a loverboy not a fuckboy and I'm falling for this side of Colin.

Slowly at first like licking my lips then our tongues crashed and then he grabbed my hair with both of his hands and tugged my head and kissed me more deeply, groaning.

I put my hands on his big chest and opened for him to kiss me more. I savoured his mouth too, sucking the breath from him.

He broke the kiss when Kade came with a tray on his hands.

We sat on the chairs .

Kade and Colin on one side and me on the other. I looked at them, and they look alike. They're brothers after all, but while Kade's eyes are brown, Colin's are green with a shade of brown. I think he has his mother eyes, speaking of I've never heard of her.

" I don't want to step any lines but may I ask where is your mother?"- i ask, curiousity getting the best of me.

Their eyes fell, and while Kade looked a bit sad Colin's eyes hardened. Shit, did I crossed a line.

" Dead,"- he said. His eyes didn't twitch, his face features didn't change. Nothing to say that he was sad over her death.

" I'm sorry!"- it's all I can say.

" I'm not,"- he growled and my jaw dropped. He's not sorry his mother is dead. Did something happened. I look at Kade who was looking at his brother with guilty eyes. Like he was regretting something.

Kade sighed " Colin was five when he  caught her cheating on our father with one of the guards,"- he said and my jaw dropped again. She had the balls to cheat on Silas. She must have been very brave.

" And when she saw that Colin tried to run away to tell dad she run after him, grabbed him and took him to the room where she was fucking the guard. Luckily dad and one of his friends heard Colin's yelling and they were in time seconds before the guard could pull the trigger of the gun that was directed at Colin's head. The guard was dead in a instant, and then dad killed her,"- Kade said, his voice filled with hate for their mother. Oh my god, she was getting her child killed? I shivered.

" You didn't deserve that,"- i say to Colin and gently laid my hands over his. He smiled at me, his eyes softening.

" And she got what she deserved,"- he said and there's not a hint of hurt in his eyes.

" Was she a good mother before that happened?" - i know I'm pushing my luck, I know I might be crossing a line but...

" She resented us,"- Colin said. Fuck, my jaw dropped for the third time.

" Why?"- my voice is barely a whisper.

" Because we are Silas children and she hated him,"

Well, I don't think Silas has been the perfect loving husband.

Kade and Colin must have read my mind.

" He didn't force her, they had one night stand when she was sixteen and dad just turned fourteen,"- Colin said.

" But she never loved him," - Kade says.

" Dropp it, I don't want to discuss more about her,"- Colin said and I nodded.

After a few minutes the atmosphere relaxed and we were joking and smiling like before.

I took an energy drink from the tray and drank half of it. We chilled for half an hour by the time Silas and Logan came.

I tensed when I saw them. My eyes moved to Silas. He killed the mother of his children, he won't even blink to kill me. I shuddered. I need to get these thoughts out of my head.

Logan was holding my book on his hand. Silas took my energy drink and examined it like it was drugs.

" Who gave you this?"- he asked, his voice stern. I held myself from rolling my eyes at his face.

" Seriously Silas, it's just a energy drink. It won't kill me."- i said to him.

He gave me a disapproving gaze, sighed and gave it back. Then he took out of his pocket a phone. My new phone and gave it to me. I smiled.

" Thank you!"- i said to him and he nodded.

I turned it on. Then while the men very busy discussing mafia business, I downloaded my social media account. I only have Instagram and TikTok by the way.  I don't post anything, I don't want to post my face on social media.

I logged in my account and there were some messages by my friends. I first opened Kristines.

" Aria, are you okay?"- she has send a few days ago.

" Kris, I'm okay, don't worry. How are you?"- i replied. It's good having a phone back. She replied almost instantly

" Oh thank god, they gave your phone back?"- she sent.

" No, they buyed me a new one! Where are you?"- i asked.

" Hanging out with Karoline and Megan. Wish you were here too. By the way tomorrow for lunch we're going to our favourite coffee in the city. Can you convince them to come?"- she sent. I'm sure Silas won't let me.

" I don't think I can. "- i sent.

" Oh , that's bad. By the way did you know a new teacher will be watching over us at math exam. They will even move our classroom, so we can't sneak cheat papers."- she sent.

Only this was missing, a new teacher who might be a bitch or an asshole.

" I've been studying. I almost solved all the equations!"- i sent.

" What? For real girl what's going there?"- she sent.

Too much has been going on but she doesn't need to know that. It's not that I don't trust her, it's because I don't want her to get sad because she can't do anything to help me.

" See you on Monday!"- i send and she sent a kiss.

Maybe I should try my chance. I have nothing to lose.

" Silas?"- i called.

" Yes!"- he replied.

" Emm, my girlfriends are going to a cafeteria tomorrow afternoon. Can I go to?"- i asked. 

" You should ask the one who is responsible for your schedule tomorrow!"- he said.

The one responsible for my schedule?

What is this now? Are they going to fucking controll everything? Schedule my ass, but I can't say that. I need to play my cards right. I still have to study for the exam so the one responsibility for my schedule is Logan.

I turned to Logan and he nodded.

Well, I didn't expect it.

“ Thank you,”- i say and he smiled a little. Maybe he's feeling bad for forcing himself on me yesterday but I doubt it.

He said he doesn't give a fuck and that I believe.

We stayed outside until the servant came to tell us that dinner is ready. I'm a little hungry to be honest so I go to the dining room eagerly, but when I see the okras with chicken my face fell. God, why?

  I ate a bit of the meat . I didn't even touched the okra. I hate them more than anything.

" The okras are good, try them!"- Kade said to me when he saw I was playing with the food. He blinked, twice. Warning me.

" I don't really want to. I hate them!"- i said even though I understand his message. He gave me a disappointing gaze and shook his head. Yeah, I might be stupid but I really hate them.

Then Silas stabbed a forkful from my plate with so much force I flinched. The plate must be made of iron because it didn't break.

" Open!"- he ordered. I looked at him and he was glaring at me, his eyes telling me about the punishment that's going to come if I don't obey.

I opened my mouth and he put the fork inside. I chewed on them on wish I haven't.

They were so fucking bad. I swallowed immediately and then drank a full glass of water.

Silas took some okra again on his fork but I looked at him and shaked my head.

Screw the punishment, I really can't eat them.

" Please don't make me eat them!"- i begged.

" I'm so tired of your picky eating!"- he growled and with one hand grabbed my jaw and squeezing it so  hard I opened my mouth and with the other he put the okra on my mouth. He forced feeded me the whole okras. When I was done he started eating for himself.  Logan has finished his plate too.

" Let's go upstairs."- Logan said and got up .

Fucking great. From one overbearing asshole jumping directly at the other.

Fantastic.

I followed him, glaring at his head , thinking about slamming something on his head. But I'm too fucking coward to do that.

We went to my room.  A dread spreaded all over me at the thoughts about how this night would go on. Is he going to hit me again? Force himself on me again?

The book that Logan took outside was here. Maybe one of the guards brought it here.

We sat down on our chairs and i opened the notebook. 

Logan explained the hardest equation and based on the laws of each equation I was able to solve some. Tonight we finished around 2 am and Logan left the room. I let out a breath of relief. He didn't hurt me tonight.

Then I decided to take my phone and went to Kades room. When I pushed the door Kade was sleeping on his front, with both of his arms under his pillow. I slowly closed the door and went to the bed. The moment I sat on the bed Kade moved so fast I didn't see when he put a gun on my forehead.