" Good job preparing her for me."- Silas said and lifted me in bridal style.

When he touched me I flinched. He took me to his bedroom and threw me on the bed.  This is the moment I lose my virginity to my captor and abuser.

Even though I'm scared, I'm a little excited too. I can't wait to find how it must feel. Kris always says that it's the best feeling in the world, of course if the dick is big and the owner know how to use it. I used to roll my eyes at her. But now I can't wait to find out. I've thought too many times about losing my virginity but I wanted to give it to someone I was attracted too. And I never found that man. But with Silas I don't know. I'm attracted to him but also I'm not. I'm afraid of him. He started unbuttoning his shirt and took it off. His biceps and chest muscles flexed. I found it so hot.

I've always been attracted to men with muscles.  Then he took off his pants and his boxers. He stood naked in front of me.

God, what a body. His body was ripped with muscles. He must spent a lot of time in the gym to hold that shape at this age.

He saw me eyeing his body and the fucker smirked. He came to the bed.

He gently stroked my face with his hand and then kissed me. My body shivered but in a good way.  I felt myself getting more wet. While kissing me his hand stroked my thigh and went up until it touched my pussy. He gently stroked my clit and I moaned.

My hips moved up on their own as I grabbed his shoulder.

" Does it feel good?"- he asked, his voice filled with lust.

" Yes,"- i breathed and he pushed a finger inside.  Fuck it feels so good. He gently finger fucked me with one finger and when I was getting wetter he pushed another finger in.

" Silas,"- i moaned his name as a wave of pleasure released my body.

I came all over his fingers. My breathing was still heavy when he pulled his fingers out and licked them.

" Hmm, delicious,"- he moaned and my pussy clenched as more wetness came out. Fuck that was hot.

" This will hurt a little, "- Silas said, stroking his big cock. Why does he have to be so big?

He kissed me on the lips and then I felt the head of his cock stroking my clit. I tensed. 

" Relax, it will hurt more if you're tense!"- he said and gave me a quick kiss on the lips.

“ I don't want it to hurt,”- i whispered. I'm scared, even though I want it. His eyes softened and he kissed my cheek.

“ I can take it slow but the burning will last longer,”- he said, kissing my cheek again.

“ It will be over faster than you think,”- he whispered and kissed my lips. I kissed him back.

" Wrap your arms around my neck,"- he gently said. After I did what he said he pushed  in with one thrust. I screamed. I screamed so much, tears fell fast from my eyes and it was so painful.

It felt like  my insides were ripped apart. I struggle to get away from him but he was holding me tight.

" Please, get off me, it hurts so much!"- i cried. My vagina hurts. He licked my tears.

" Hshsh, relax!"- his voice was surprisingly gentle.

I felt like my pussy was on fire. Then he started moving, he started by pushing softly in and out, in and out, and  my body  slowly started relaxing. I was still in pain but the pleasure started building in my lower belly. Then he pinned my wrist to the mattress with his hands and moved in slow gentle thrusts . I cried from both the pain and the pleasure and closed my eyes.

He stopped moving

" Eyes on me, baby,"- he ordered me gently. I opened my eyes and looked at his. They were soft, not like the violent Silas I know.

Then he started moving again. We both moaned.

" It feels so good baby,"- he whispered as he thrusted a little harder. I agree with him. It feels so good. His cock filling me feels so good.

His movements grew faster and harder.

My toes curled as the pleasure grew.

" Silas,"- i moaned his name.

" Come with me,"- he growled as he thrust harder.

A cry was ripped off my throat as another wave of pleasure escaped me.

He groaned as his cock twitched inside of me and he filled me with his sperm.

Good thing I'm in birth control. What? I'm in a age that I can have sex. I took the shoot when I turned sixteen.

They gave me three orgasm under a hour. That's incredible.

I hissed when he pulled out. I still felt pain and I groaned. Silas  kissed my head “ You did very good,” and gently rubbed my belly. I can't believe he is the Silas I know. Something must have possessed his body because the Silas I know is cold. This one over me is gentle.

" Let's shower together!"- he said and he took me to the bathroom.

My legs were shaking and he washed my hair with his shampoo and his hands were gentle against my scalp. Don't get me wrong, I'm not letting my guards down, but if I can have a small show of gentles from him I will take it. I know he can get back to violent in a instant and I really don't want that. I don't want to get beated. After he washed my hair he washed my body with a cloth.

But then he grabbed my hair and pushed my front to the wall, gently. With one hand he was holding my head to the wall and with the other he pulled my hips out and stroked my clit. I moaned as his fingers slipped inside me.  I'm still sore.

“ Does it hurt?“- he asked as I felt his body behind mine.

“ I'm a little sore,”- i whispered.

While his finger was inside me he wrapped a arm around me and rubbed my clit with his other hand gently.  My nails scratched over the black tiles as I felt the pleasure building up low in my belly. “ Fuck,”- i said. He kissed my neck and gently bit it and I moaned loudly. I couldn't help myself. Then he licked me up to my earlobe and gently sucked it as his fingers rubbed my clit harder. I moaned loudly again. He pulled his fingers out and  pushed in from behind.He pushed in slowly.

His cock is big and I feel so full. He grabbed my hips and fucked me hard. This time I didn't feel so much pain. His groin slapping against my ass and his groans were hot as fuck.

" Oh god!"- i moaned and he fucked me until I came, screaming. I didn't feel him when he came but I know he came because he roared and slammed a hand on the tiles. When he pulled out my legs gave up but he caught me and pulled me out of the shower, then he dried my hair and body with a towel and took another towel to dry himself.  He was big and tall and his dick was still semi hard.  He is big in size.

" Don't look at him like that or you will stay awake until morning!"- he said and took me by the hand and we went to the bedroom. He removed the bed sheets that were stained with my blood and he looked satisfied.  Sick fuck. Then we layed down and he hugged me.

“ You can also be gentle,”- i say in a soft low voice.

“ I will never hurt you because that's what I want, I will only hurt you when you disobey me,”-he said and hugged me closer to him.

His naked body feels so warm against me and I fell asleep on his arms.

When I woke up the next morning I was alone in bed. No sight of Silas. My pussy was sore. I got up and went to the bathroom . After a quick hot shower I put on a bathrobe and went to my bedroom. I dressed and styled my hair and went downstairs. All of them were on the table eating breakfast.

" Good morning princess!"- Colin said and I clenched my jaw. Can't they stop irritating me just for one time.

" Don't call me that. I'm not a princess nor will I be, ever." - then I sat down and poured a cup of espresso then put some milk on it. I wasn't hungry so I didn't touch the food.

" You're not hungry?"- Silas asked.

" No, I'm not." - i said.

In fact I'm mad. Mad at myself for enjoying him last night. I'm ashamed of myself. He kidnapped me, hurted my brother then fucked me and I was moaning in pleasure. I want to slamm my head against a wall until my skull cracs, I'm a fucking whore.

" Eat, right now!"- he ordered and I closed my eyes to stop from telling him to fuck off. 

Its not worth it. I grabbed a piece of french toast and eat that.

" Logan will drive you to school. And he will pick you up. For your own sake behave!"- Silas said.

I nodded. Of course I will behave. I don't want my brother to get killed.

I ate the toast and drinked my coffee. I'm in a fucking bad mood today.

" Let's go!"- Logan said and got up. I followed him and we drived with his black Range Rover. The drive passed in silence. When we arrived Kristine was waiting at the gate. She looked at our direction but because the window of the car were black, which prevented the people from recognising the person inside the car, she couldn't see me, and when I got out she rushed to me and hugged me.

" I was so scared!"- she said, then she let me go and she turned her head to the car and when she saw Logan watching her like a hawk she took a step back in fear. I immediately slammed the door, took her by the arm and went inside. When we were in the hallway she turned to me to say something but her eyes opened in shock.

" What happened to your face?"- she asked with a sad look on her face. My cheekbone has turned black.

“ Did you hear about yesterday?“- i asked. She nodded.

“ Is Anderson okay?“i ask and she nods again.

“ He will be okay, thank god there wasn't some serious damage." Kris said and I sighed in relief. 

“ I'm so sorry!”- Kristine whispered and I smiled at her, grateful for having her.

The bell rang and we went to our class. Me and Kristine have always shared a desk. Behind us were our two closest friends. Caroline and Morgan.

“ So, what are the gossiping?“- I asked and Caroline looked at me. Words spread fast in our school and they already know about what happened to me.

“ They say that you're dating someone from DeLuca but they don't know who. Some say that you were kidnapped and on and on. I mean we're talking about the mob boss Silas DeLuca, everyone knows who he is. At least they know his name.“

I sigh in sadness. Kris put a hand on my thigh and squeezed gently.  I smile at her.

The door opened and our English literature teacher came in.

Well she's a bitch, and I hate her so much. In fact there's isn't one student in my closet who doesn't hate her. She's a bitch to everyone. Most of the female teachers in our school are fucking whores. Married woman fucking their colleagues. Disgusting shit.

She thinks she's the most beautiful woman on earth.

She sat on her chair and the first thing she did was check her makeup. She took a lipstick from her back and applied it on her lips. Kris nudged me with her elbow, already thinking about trouble.

“ What are you thinking?”- she whispered to me. I smiled

“ How her lips would look with pig blood,”- i say and she bit her lips to stop herself from laughing.

Someone nudged me from behind. I slightly turned my head and Morgan was poking me with her pen.

“ How do we do that?“- the little devil said. What? It's not me who's the crazy one, in fact I've learned from the best.

“ We can't do that,”- i say.

The bitch clears her throat.

“ Aria, if you have something to say say it loudly so we can also hear,”- the bitch, I mean the teacher spoke  in her ugly voice.

I give her the most  fake smile I've ever put on my face.

“ Sorry Mr.Mirr, I was just telling the girls how good that lipstick looks on you and they told me it must be very expensive,”- i say.

Kristine snorted as she lowered her head. I kicked her feet.

“ Thank you, but instead of commenting about me why don't you tell us about today's lesson,”- she said. Fuck this bitch.

“ I haven't read,”- i say. She nods.

“ Minus for today, if you get three more minuses I will fail you for this semester,”- the bitch said. In fact I would be surprised if she didn't fail me.

She continued on with her lesson.

By the time the bell ringed I was bored out of my fucking mind. She left the class and Kristine turned to me

“ That was hilarious,”- she said as she lightly punched me in the shoulder.

After English we had Maths and chemistry.

And guess who was the luckiest one? Me again.

But she didn't ask me about the lesson, the teacher told me to solve a problem and I didn't, so I got another minus. Make them two. I hope Silas doesn't asks me. 

It was nearly two pm when the school finished and we could finally go home. But the thought of going home filled me with dread. I don't have a home. The place I live isn't home.

But do I have another choice? No. We got out of the school and Logan was already waiting for me. His black Range Rover parked in front of the gates. But what surprised me was Mr.Mirr , the bitch teacher flirting with Logan.

“ I swear there's not one man she hasn't fucked in this city,”- Kristine said.

For a moment I saw red but then I thought why did I see red? It's not like Logan is my lover. She can have him, I don't give a fuck.

“ I'm leaving,”- Kris said and she left.

Slowly I walked towards them.

“ Let's go for a drink, for old time sakes,” the bitch said but Logan wasn't looking at her. He was looking at me.

  “ What do you think? I can give you a good night,”- she says again.

I open the car door and that's when the bitch sees me. I smile at her, fake as always.

“ Aria, what are you doing here? With… Logan?“- she said to me, smiling fake.

“ Oh you don't know?“- i say sarcastically. She looked confused.