" And who are you to order me around?"- i said, and he  stopped on his tracks.

Then he turned around facing me, his dark eyes hardening around the edges.

The man is as beautiful as terrifying.

It's like God couldn't decide when he made him, a man or a monster.

" Dare and don't do what I said and you will see who the fuck I am!"- he said, his voice harsh and left.

Motherfucker. I don't want to obey him but I don't want to get his either.

I went to Silas office and opened the door without knocking. He was typing on his computer and when the door opened he angrily lifted his head, but when he saw me he softened. But then he must remember he was angry with me because his eyes hardened again. Motherfucking son of the bitch.

" Dinner is ready!"

He nodded.

" I will be there in five minutes!"- he said and looked back at what he was doing before I came to his office. Before I leave I look around the office, the walls are painted in a beautiful dark grey colour.

There's a black bookshelf at the left side of the room filled with books. At the right side is another matching bookshelf. At the end of the room facing the door is Silas big black desk. His chair is also black and behind him are the ceiling to the floor glass windows.

In front of the desk are two three-seats black sofas facing each other and in the middle is a coffee table.

The room is nice. I'm lost looking around the room and he clears his throat. My eyes move to his and his are already glaring at me.

I took my cue to leave.

I went to the dining room and there were Kade, Colin and Logan. The dining table is also black, most of the furniture is black so they must love the colour. I love it too.

" I heard someone has been a bad girl!"- Colin said smirking.

I glare at him. This motherfucker thinks that is easy for me.

" Fuck you!"- i said to him, my voice raising. I hate him and his family.

" I will gladly fuck you!"- Colin said and I grabbed a glass from the table but a hand on my wrist stopped me from throwing it to him. Logan's grip was painful.

" Let me go!"- i hissed. He didn't look at me as he put more force into it making me cry out.

"Ahh" - i cried , his grip so painful.

I grabbed his wrist with my other hand and tugged it but he's holding me tight and I couldn't move his hand from my wrist.

" Logan, let her go!"- Kade demanded.

His eyes moved between Logan and me. I still hate him for hitting me. Fucking asshole.

Logan took his hand off my wrist.

I rubbed my wrists. It's a little red but thankfully it won't leave a bruise.

I hate bruises.

" You're protecting her for the second time today, why?"- Logan asked.

I look at him surprised. What the fuck is he talking about?

He protected me? My blood heated.

" Are you blinded? He beat me in the car, if you don't remember?"- I yelled at Logan, very pissed with him.

" Because he knew your punishment would've been much worse if he didn't punish you. And since I wasn't home Logan would've punished you and you don't want that!"- Silas said when he came to the room and went to his chair at the head of the table. Another fucking asshole. I clenched my jaw as my eyes went to the butter knife on the table.

Can I stab him?

I don't think so, I will be dead before I get close enough to him.

“ You also hit me,”- i say to Silas, my voice coming out weak. The fuck?

He looked at me.

“ That was nothing, you're lucky I wasn't home,”- he said again and I flinched. I swallowed as my hand went to my face, stroking where he hit me.

I realised what I was doing and immediately lowered the hand in my lap.

I shouldn't show how his words affect me. Instead I swallowed one more time as I gathered a little courage.

“ Is this how's going to go from now on? Every time I disobey you you're going to beat me?“- i say, my voice coming out harsh. As I intended too.

Silas didn't look at all affected by my words. Idiot. I hope you die.

“ Think of it as a punishment, every time you disobey you will get punished,”- he said while looking into my eyes, like it's a normal fucking thing. What does he think, that we are playing a movie?

“ This is abuse,”- my voice coming out as a broken whisper. Fuck, I should sound strong.

“ Then don't disobey and you won't get abused,”- he said.

I clenched my jaw, who's still hurting but didn't say anything else. I want to drop this subject or I will end up getting beaten again.

Then I looked at Kade.

Kade protected me from Logan. Why? Because he knew I may die in Logan's hands? Is he that bad? I continued to look at him and he offered a small smile and nodded his head.  So Kade isn't an enemy. He hit me to protect me. But still, he hit me. That means that he is violent too.

This doesn't make sense. Colin hasn't hurt me at all, but he threatened to drag me by my hair yesterday. Where did I end up? Why did God throw me here? Four ass grown men against a small woman. How am I supposed to fight them?

Right, I shouldn't fight them.

  The chef came to serve. Tonight's menu was baked potatoes and chicken. Smells delicious. After he put the plates on the table he left. Then Silas opened a bottle of wine and filled each glass except mine.

  " Can you please pour me just a little?"- i asked Silas because I really need some alcohol now and he nodded but when he took my glass in his big hand Logan stopped him by putting his hand on his.

" She needs to study after dinner,  she was busy watching tv so she didn't read a damn thing."- Logan said and Silas looked at me.

Oh fuck, not again.

I'm in big trouble.

“ I won't get drunk with a glass of wine,”- i snapped at Logan who didn't even look at me. Motherfucker.

" What did I say to you?"- Silas growled, making my eyes go directly to him. Fuck, he seems angry again.

" To study." - I whispered, my face throbbing reminding me of his violent hands.

" Get up and go study right fucking know."- he shouted and I immediately got up.

What's his problem? Does he care that much about my studies? Why? My parents didn't even once told me to read. I went to the living room and opened the book. By the time they came to the living room I had read it three times. It's been so long since I've opened a book. Then Logan took the book from my hand and made me repeat what I've read. When I finished he was satisfied and put the book down.

Asshole.

But then Kade came to me and put his hand under my ass , lifted me and sat me on his lap. I could feel his hard muscles under my soft thighs. What is he doing now?

Then he kissed me. Oh fuck, here we go again.

I tried to pull away from him,but he put a hand behind my head and deepened the kiss. I don't want to kiss him. Not because I feel disgusted but quite the opposite. His lips against mine turn me on and I want to fight it as much as I can.

I shouldn't enjoy this. This is not a normal willing relationship. They're holding me here against my will.

I can't like them and I definitely can't fall for them. Why am I saying this?

Because I've read so many books where the captive falls for their kidnapper after a few times after having sex. I don't want that.

Even though I was trying to fight, his lips on mine felt so good I moaned, gave up fighting and kissed him back. Then he lifted my t-shirt but i crossed my hand to stop him. He break the kiss.

" If you don't remove your hand I will rip them!"- he said and kissed me again, more harshly.

Then he took the t-shirt off me and next my bra. I was half naked. Kade cupped my breasts and squeezed them. I felt embarrassed  being half naked in front of four men. Then I felt a hand on my hair breaking me from Kade's kiss then Colin kissed me, while Kade licked my breasts. Oh God. He licked and sucked them, I couldn't concentrate on Colin's kiss. Then Kade laid me on the sofa and removed my bottoms. I tried to cover myself with my hand but Colin grabbed my hands and put them above my head, pinning them to the sofa with one of his hands.

Then Kade sat between my legs and forced them to open. He stroked my clit with his fingers while Colin licked my breasts. Then Kade put a finger in.

" Look how wet she is."- he said after pulling the finger out and putting them inside Colin's mouth.

I felt embarrassed, I shouldn't want this, this is wrong but my body feels otherwise.

Colin groaned, but then I felt something wet and warm in my pussy. Holy fuck Kade was licking me. He started with my clit then went to my hole and put his tongue inside. I gasped as I looked at him with wide eyes, it felt incredible.  I moaned  and turned my head and my eyes connected with Logan's. But then he got up and left. Then Kade started fucking me with his fingers.

" Please!"- i said begging.

" Please what?"- Kade said .

" Please stop. It's wrong"- i whispered.

“ It's not wrong," Colin said as he kissed my neck.

. Kade fucked me with his fingers until my legs opened wider uncontrollably and a scream was ripped from my throat. I felt my orgasm shattering me as I lay there breathing heavily, feeling like I was in heaven. Fuck that really was incredible. I've never felt an earthshaking orgasm.

After I came Kade got up and Silas came.

" Good job preparing her for me."- Silas said and lifted me in bridal style.

When he touched me I flinched. He took me to his bedroom and threw me on the bed.  This is the moment I lose my virginity to my captor and abuser.